Let's see -- what will be my excuse this time? My crushing, ill-advised workload? The seemingly endless stress of the past month? The difficulty I have had finding any siginificant light at the end of this long tunnel? I have lots of 'em, but they are not enough. Not for me.
So ... how to recap the last month, or however long it has been since my last post? Two week ago I ran the Sunrise "8k" (on an uncertified course that according to my GPS and several veteran runners that I've talked to, is really an even 5 miles) in mediocre fashion, finishing in just under 40 minutes after experimenting with holding an even pace until the 75- degree heat and 70 percent humidity did me in. Then, later that morning, I had to take a Praxis subject test as the last step to getting a provisional teacher certification. I've had two job interviews -- my first in ten years -- and neither one went very well. My wife is disgusted with me for not having started this process sooner, and I am beginning to share her disgust. Meanwhile, my day job continues to deteriorate into a pageant of absurdity, as my co-workers and I struggle to do right by our patients against the machinations of the loathsome self-preservationists and bean-counters above us in the shame of command.
If I sound bitter, it's only because I am. My anger is not the result of being forced to change, as that is probably long overdue. It is because the people that have depended upon me as a familiar face and a guiding force for over ten years will soon be left with nothing, and no one. I will not apologize for my fury over that, and I will not ignore the voice of conscience within me that fuels my utter hatred for the bastards responsible for this travesty.
But it's late now, and I've been burning the candle at both ends. Thus I shall put an end to this entry with intent -- but not promise -- to resume regular posts to this blog.
